I ran across the street, to see you
To hold your hand, to feel you
I kissed you, hugged, you, held you close,
and it turned out to be a daydream.

Most of these students, sitting in the room, not paying attention at all.
A teacher, giving a lecture that falls on deaf & distracted ears.
And a Seventeen year-old young man, who misses you.

I'm such a fucking sap. I always thought I wouldn't ever be like this.
I used to think that I would be less of a man, if I said "I miss you" an hour after I get off the phone.
I obviously don't think like that anymore.

In Eight days, it'll be Two months.
I don't mind when you fall asleep before we get a chance to talk.
I love your letters, & I love your smile, & I love your laugh, & I love your gorgeous eyes.

I love you.

Alex English

This has to be a world record. 4 blog posts in one day. I just can't leave this alone.
I'm sitting in class today, bored as hell. I have a half-hour left in this block, and I'm done with the most brutal class of the day.

Just keep your arms around me. I won't let your body touch, won't let it touch the ground. Just keep your eyes on me. And let me be your gravity. Until you can, can sleep sound.

So, I haven't written a song in quite a while. Maybe I'll do that sometime real soon.

I'm feeling better. I felt like there was a weight on my shoulders, but I'm doing a hell of a lot better now that I've been constantly blogging.

This blog's a bunch of trash. Look how quickly Jon changes his mind from "I feel better from constantly blogging" to "I think this blog is utter trash". Oh well.

The best idea I've ever heard was cutting the week short & just spending time together, alone, and not having to worry about anyone at all. I love that idea. I just wish it were possible.

Yet again

another blog post.
I feel better now that I'm not wasting energy on pathetic people. I've forgotten my previous method for happiness:

Don't let people's attitudes dictate how you feel. Honestly, people can hate me all they want. I'm not going to let it ruin my day. Because today, I get to see the most beautiful, amazing girl. That's all I've wanted all week, so frankly, I don't give a damn as to what others have to say.

Like I said in my last post, I really am tired, though. I'm just plain out exhausted. Insomnia has gotten the best of me for two days in a row, and it's not fair. But what can I do? There's nothing I, myself can do to cure it, and there is where the problem lies.

I wish I could cure everything. I wish I could make everyone feel better. I wish I could cure anger, hatred, and sorrow. Again, this isn't the case. People won't listen, no matter how much sense you fucking make.

So, I can't do anything but sit here and listen to angry people. I have to sit here and listen to people bitch each other out for no real reason. But it's okay. No matter how much someone done goofs, I could never hate them. Hatred is an illness, and people who hate others are the ill.

Anyways, right now I have mixed feelings of exhaustion, hunger, thirst, & love, along with the fact that I miss that beautiful, wonderful girl I mentioned.

I hope today goes by faster.

I'm Tired.

I'm sick of people's shit.

I'm tired of people in general.
I'm tired of people who are pissed at other people for no reason.
I'm tired of people who are just wasting their time & energy on stupid things
I'm tired of people who are not worth the time of day
I'm tired of people who are tired of people
I'm tired of people
I'm tired of
I'm tired.

Maybe I shouldn't just give up on people, however.
I love my friends to death. I love my girlfriend so much that it fucking hurts.
So maybe I shouldn't give up on people.
I just don't have the energy to keep dwelling on people who aren't worth it.

Hello, World!

The first program you will ever write in any Java class ever.


class HelloWorld
{
public static void main(String args[])
{
System.out.println("Hello World!");
}
}


Black & White. Clear as day.
I guess this post is my "Hello World" code.
I'm Jon. This is my blog. Welcome. I doubt anyone is reading, and frankly I don't give a damn, because this is where I can post my thoughts & vent.