My fading sanity

I can't be assed to deal with these people day in and day out. I can feel my sanity slowly going. I don't really know whether or not to break down and cry or break down and punch someone in the face. If I didn't have so much goddamn strain this trimester of school, I wouldn't feel so bad. Here is a list of things I need to do:

• Get a job
• Get a driver's permit
• Apply to colleges
• Graduation Project Paper
• Graduation Project presentation
• Graduation Project website

While small, this list is filled with some pretty huge things. And this is just the beginning of the school year!! Not to mention my grad project teacher keeps laying on layer upon layer of work. I'm not even done with the rough draft of my paper. Now I'm worried that I'm screwed, that I won't be able to graduate. Everyone's putting a huge amount of stress on all these ridiculous fucking things and I can't handle it. Great. Now it feels like I'm going to vomit. I can't focus on my work at all. I honestly keep trying to start it, but my stomach hurts, I feel nauseous, and I'm in such a terrible mood. I'm really sorry for bitching, I just want the week to be over.

Caviar

Fighting everyone that I see
Learning when and where not to be

I'm complaining a lot lately. And I hate complaining a lot. So, this will be a change of pace.

You asked me if we'd still be together a year from now. You asked me if, when I headed off to college, that we'd still be together. I laughed at that question. Of course I would laugh. Darling, when we made our future plans, I meant it.

I'm applying to college. I'm planning on being 30-45 minutes away (60 minutes, at max). I'll be able to drive, so I'm coming back every weekend. Question is, are you going to be there waiting for me? I hope so. I'll see you today, and that will make today better. I'll see you again tomorrow and then we'll be together Friday as well. Everything will be wonderful, and we'll get through the week. I promise.

You, speak of awe
and make every word taste sweet

Vapidity

Why must I surround myself with people that are so goddamn boring and so annoying?
No one here says anything of any importance. It's draining all of my energy. And then they wonder why I sit here with my music extremely loud, and why I use headphones that rape your ear. So I can't hear their stupid shit.

Honestly, it's real irritating when people tell you about their life. And not the interesting stories like, "You'll never guess what happened to me yesterday............. lololololololololol!" No, nothing like that. The people that are telling me about their life are people who relate every single detail that you don't give a damn about. "So, I painted my nails the prettiest pink yesterday, but they must have gotten ruined while I slept!" or "Yeah, I just got this new app for my phone that makes all the other apps run 1.5% faster!". Bullshit.