I'm waiting

Anticipation's risin'. Where's your response? I can't wait to see what you've got to say now that I've stood up for myself. I honestly wish that you could read this. That you knew this existed, so you can see just how fucking happy I am without you trying to bring me down.

I'm not letting you put a damper on my week, and I'm sure as hell not letting your bad attitude and negative thoughts affect me.

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And while we're on the subject of people, I still don't like you (different person than above). While you're stupid, pathetic, and completely hypocritical, I don't hate you. I just want you to fuck off and leave us alone. It's not even like you would do anything to us because you're afraid to confront us. If you want to fucking talk shit about the people I love, you can tell me to my goddamn face, and you can tell it to theirs. Quit hiding behind blogger, facebook, and texts. Much like I don't want to deal with the previously mentioned person's shit, I don't want to deal with yours. I don't care if you talk shit about me, her, or any of my friends, and I don't hear it. In fact, I don't care what you think, because it's insignificant and doesn't matter. And I hope that you read this, and I hope that you know I'm talking about you. This statement is true for the above.

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As a complete change of pace, I'm happy. I'm in love. I'm going to get through today and the rest of the week so I can be with you, baby.

Reprogramming Mental Preprogramming

No matter what happens next, you're going to have to trust me when I say that I'll still love you.

I honestly don't know what qualities about me make me an apparent asshole and a dick. I'm not sure that I did anything wrong at all. In fact, I'm pretty sure of it. It just seems like every time I have stuff going for me, someone views me as if I'm a horrible person.

However, I don't really give a damn. Because I'm done trying to make people happy. I'm done trying to sacrifice things that will benefit me, just so other people can be satisfied and they can rest easy. Sure, disregard the fact that Jon really needed this. Disregard the fact that Jon is finally happy. Whatever helps you sleep at night.

I know that sounds like a selfish thing to say, but in all honesty EVERYTHING we do as human beings is somewhat selfish. It's not a bad thing. It's human nature. It's programmed into our very being. As much as you want to, you can't Reprogram Mental Preprogramming.

Honestly, I'm not going to let you ruin my day or my week. I'll see you soon. And when I do, I'll smile and greet you as an old friend, not a foe.

You call her a bitch, you call me a dick, you say one more goddamn thing and I'll fucking leave. And I'll take my position in the band with me.

We are all freaks living in recession/if we don't move on I'll forever be stuck